A lifetime of this torturous dance, I willingly grasp knowing the journey is never by chance

There is much to catch, to teach, to guide, so I stay and fiercely by you abide

Overflowing needs with help to give, love to share, legacy to make, so I pour into you fully although I’m at stake

Much more given than I had to share, spending honest time loving deep with nothing to spare

The sunlight that comes as the tiny bud grows gives meaning and strength in the life that I know

Looking back I can see the clever trap displayed, disguised as genuine but intended to betray

Shadows of horror as if I’m not even there, the turning of tide, soured notes so unfair

No kind honor of pouring out of my all, worse yet, no gentle stay for the form of you small

No enduring power of my stay to hold us through, left with no choice but to clearly see you

So I go with ache and shame of what I lost, some willingly but some too big a cost

Wanting to cling while trying to let the hope of a miracle slip away overcome by regret

There is much to heal as I let go of mad to embrace aware, stumbling to find the exit of this caustic affair

I settle in the comfort under His wing as many times before, knowing one day the sun will once again brighten my door

I anticipate basking in warmth of her rays, and lean into the joy of fruitfully spending my days

Giving my all to those who have gathered near, to relentlessly treasure our time through the years

Holding little hands as love stamps out fear, sweet grace reaches out to catch each tear.

No matter my missteps in our now- over dance, every effort was made to leave nothing to chance.

To turn ashes of turmoil to beauty and strength so you could build your own shade and carry on with solid faith

Was the hope I clung to as we struggled and grew, one day I hope you realize how profoundly I treasured you.